Dreams: A Statement

"Experience has taught me that you cannot value dreams according to the odds of their becoming true. Their real value is in stirring within us the will to aspire."
- Justice Sonia Sotomayor

If it was up to me...

...I'd spend my upcoming days with my feet in the sand and a book in my hands. Each day, or every other day, the book title would change. I'd fly through each one just like that. There would be nothing but time to read, and I believe that it's possible to read at a brisk pace and still take in the content at a quality level.

Well, what am I talking about? It is up to me, but since I'm not about paying that "last-second plane ticket to Miami, so I can lay on the beach and read all day" life, sitting at the house and reading with music playing in the background all day and alone in my own thoughts will have to do.

At least I won't have to be at work.

7/2/13 @ 6:10 P.M.

Return from Exile.

It's amazing how much better I feel mentally, physically and emotionally than I did four months ago...

...and it's because advanced statistics is officially in the rear view. Outside of when it's time to start doing a dissertation, I'll never have to see that crap again.

Praise God. My life is my own again.

5/24/13 @ 10:57 A.M.

24, 23, 22, 21, 20

Now Writing - A Term Paper
Now Watching - Knicks v. Nets on ESPN

*looks above* Talk about multi-tasking.

Between a wedding last weekend, kids at the school needing to be taken care of, and making sure my own damn schoolwork is taken care of, a vacation is badly needed.

This is the first semester of my doctoral program that I've felt tired. Before now, it's been gravy. I hope this isn't a sign. It all comes to an end on Friday, and when it does, fun will be had.

12/11/12 @ 6:50 P.M.

25

Now Watching - Knicks/Heat on TNT

I missed 26 yesterday. Between work and staying at the school late to watch the kiddos play, it totally slipped my mind to post.

There's not much deep, profound or random going on right now. Today was another day The Lord blessed me to see, and here's hoping the next one brings the opportunity for greatness to commence.

12/6/12 @ 8:12 P.M.

30

Now playing - I'm Going Down
Now reading - Inside Inside

30 days left in 2012. Where did all the time go?

It feels like the year just started, yet it's literally about to end...and when it does, I'll be right here, ready to do it all over again.

12/1/12 @ 11:33 P.M.

EWF Update

Well, that was easy.

I'll be one-deep at the EWF concert next week in D-town. Besides, there will be plenty of energy in the atmosphere and in those elements, it'll be a piece of cake to make a friend.

Oh, instead of Wednesday, it's Tuesday.

Six Months.

It's been six months since I came to the country (East Texas) and started something new. In that time, it's really allowed life to slow down quite a bit. Sure, it's not too far away from home, not too far away from familiarity, but as long as familiarity is a phone call away, which it is, I'm cool with being at a distance.

In the time that's been spent in this place, I haven't made one single friend. Sure, there are people I work with, but that's not the same thing, and as far as I'm concerned, it's perfect with me. Whenever I head back to familiarity, more often than not, it's a reminder of why I was ready to go in the first place, and if the trade-off is not having friends out here, then it's a trade-off I'll gladly take.

So many things have changed since then. I'm in the bed around 8 every night; not quite asleep, but just the fact that I'm in the bed that early is a far cry from the previous life when staying up 'til 3, 4, 5 in the morning was the norm.

I don't live in the town where I work, which is a challenge in itself, and hotel rooms are a "home away from home" now, since there are times I'd rather just stay where I'm at as opposed to getting on the road again. Speaking of which, I think I left my Johnnie Cochran autobiography in the room I stayed in a couple of nights ago, which really pisses me off. Anyway, all of this is a challenge, that's for damn sure, but challenges are what part of living life is all about.

The only writing I feel like doing these days is in a journal, or on here. These days, life is very routine, with some things that happen out of the norm that make it interesting, which is fine by me.

Six months....slow as can be in a place that isn't too far from where I've been, but still feels like a world away. It's just what was needed and even more proof that God is in control of all.

Just.....LIVE.

Photo by yellanerd

12:32

2011 ended on a decent enough note. In regards to some folks who are in my life, as well as the space they occupy, there was plenty of clarity provided which will make today, as well as the other 365 following, a smooth one.

Don't get it twisted; there have been times where things have been charged to the game in the past, but this time it seemed like God pretty much said, "Look, man; decide what to do and do it now." Well, that's exactly what's happened and because of that, I can go into the new year and leave certain events and certain people in the rear view.

I can also say there are people who were around who will be around in the future and, for that, I thank God for providing clarity for that as well, as opposed to not knowing. That's never been the case before. Stuff would tend to carry over, but this time, it won't happen...and that feels good.

As for the first 30 minutes and change into the new year, it's being spent in solitude, with The Godfather Part II on the Hoshitoshi, SOS Band playing on the computer and with Teddy P's autobiography just underway; literally, I'm on page five.

1/1/12 @ 12:36 A.M.