Inspire Me.

A decision came about recently that commands respect, yet it's tough to completely understand. Things occured which ended with results which were unintended and certainly not planned. A fellow Leo once wrote, "when I find myself becoming content, inspire me..." so leave it to another to paint an alternative picture for you to see.

No hard feelings were the parting words, yet they were taken directly to heart. The picture being painted is still very much in progress, so there's no need to retreat to the beginning for a fresh start. Besides, the work that's been put in perfectly fits the specifications of the subject at hand...similar to Sade singin' a tune that she didn't intend, yet it sounded amazing with the sounds of her band. They went into the booth with differing ideas, yet they still teamed to make a song you can light candles to all night and let burn. As smooth as it was though, the chemistry didn't come in one take; it came with patience, understanding, and a desire to learn.

One party has the vocals, while the other is the band. The former can certainly find anyone to play the tune, so it's up to the latter to show they belong. Rest assured in knowing you don't have to entertain a thing, because once the strings, chords, and arrangements take shape, you'll feel more than inspired enough to sing this very song.

8/29/10 @ 1:26 A.M.

Trust Re-Visited

Life has taught me to trust is to court disappointment, occasionally even disaster
- William Forrester

Some people look at trust as something to be earned; like a badge of honor that's obtained through time, words, and deeds. They see it as the culmination of efforts put forth; a tree that grew from an endless amount of time and seasons, despite only coming from a small number of seeds. At one time, my view of trust was similar as well. It was something to be earned...but these days, I'd rather give it to you in the beginning, and hope it's handled with care and doesn't leave me battered, bruised, or burned.

Folks are gonna do what they're gonna do, whether trust is given after a year, a month, or a day or two. There's no need to make someone jump through hoops to prove they're worthy of it, even through the misdeeds of a select few. If that means courting disappointment comes with it, then I'll just make sure to have on some clean clothes, and a fresh pair of shoes. Besides, when it's comes to putting effort into something, it's never done with the intention to lose.

If it ends in a loss, so be it. Charge it to the game, take a breather, and get back in. The game of life stops for no one. Besides, you can't lose 'em all, and when it's all said and done, you'll be on top, and feelin' even brighter than the sun.

8/5/10 @ 5:03 A.M.

Intimate

Embedded...laid up together, with scant sounds. The scene's too vivid. This can't be real...and even though it's not in my visual, it's something I can still see and totally feel.

Sounds of The Root playing in the back, while you lay between my legs, nestled close, your glass of wine on the side, and hair grazing the bottom of my chin. If I was to fall asleep, it would only be to wake up and experience this feeling all over again...

The most intimate time, you with something in your hands, with things even lighter gliding between your fingers...me behind you with one of my own, allowing this to last forever, while every detail lingers.

The sounds of pages turning are the only other ones next to the music and our respective breaths. It truly is something to see. Never have I been more eager to relax, release, let go...and just read.

7/27/10 @ 2:35 A.M.

Not Ready

When the thoughts were in my head, they all sounded good and flowed so well. Yet once they went on paper, they looked like shit, which left me frustrated as hell. It sucks not being able to share, to elaborate on lust, passion, sex...you know, the thoughts that can keep anyone up late at night. Too bad they're confined to my dome, because sharing them outwardly woulda been some kinda sight.

Soon enough "the jones" will return; all I gotta do is be cool, and remain steady. Until then, bits and pieces will do the trick, and as far as anything extensive goes...no need to rush it. I'm simply not ready.

7/15/10 @ 5:09 A.M.

I Won't (Thoughts from the Highway)

A wise woman once sang...

"...don't give up on love, because..what I did to you..."

...so I won't.

6/27/10 @ 5:13 P.M.

Block

The urge to say something...to write has been evident for months on end. It's there, even if it seems to be infrequent and sparse. Even with the desire burning to speak, nothing comes out, but it doesn't mean I'm speaking lies or my feelings are a farce.

It just...has to feel right...pure...regardless of what day it is, or the hands on the clock. Until that time comes, speech will remain erratic, as more attempts are made to get around this block.

6/26/10 @ 2:36 A.M.

Photo courtesy of Scripted Libations

Brief

Although my verbal and physical exude positivity from every part of my soul, some of the writings present would lead one to believe I'm the opposite of this particular role.

To be honest, when it comes to matters of the heart, they're simply easier to express, even as the risk of vulnerability and lookin' weak. Yet, I know image isn't everything, and since that's the case, the balance remains intact that took forever to seek.

6/22/10 @ 5:23 A.M.