Rearview

I never thought it would be that simple. There was a time when the thought was too much to bear, let alone the sight.

Time really does find a way to heal all wounds. Just like that, the visual was there, directly in front of me.

No spazzing out, no feelings rushing to the surface, nothing that made me wish time would slow down.

It came and went. And just like that, it was done.

Finally. In my rearview.

On January 9th at approximately 9 P.M., a solid, sturdy figure, a visual I once knew, slowly faded away...became a blip on the road.

Gone for good.

1/16/16 @ 9:56 P.M.

Cigar and Tonic

It's been quite a while since I lit you up; so long that I fumbled just looking for the right place to start. Despite the time in between encounters, it didn't take long to feel like we'd even been apart. Even with that, there was no rush to inhale it all at once; no, it was better to take it all in, one drag at a time. We completely went with the flow, with everything certainly more than fine.

A cutter, lighter, and an ashtray on one end. A pair of keys, bag, and a small, slight glass on the other. The scent of smoke and tonic permeated the air with various sounds and acts serving as an adequate supporting cast. There was constant laughter, steady questioning, and a few stares to make the proceedings last.

But it had to end. Remember, it had been quite a while, and when that's the case, it's best to be cool and steady, enjoy the scene while not being in a rush. A single shot glass and half-smoked cigar remain, and will continue to stay untouched...

...until we meet again.

1/8/16 @ 8:54 P.M.

The Next Chapter

This site has been deserted for almost 2 years now. It wasn't meant to happen. However, just because something happens doesn't mean it has to stay that way. So here we are.

Since the last time I posted, I became a doctor. Not one who can operate on a patient in a hospital, or operate on someone's teeth, or anything like that. A doctor of education, and while it's cool and all, it's just something else to add to the arsenal. When it's all said and done, there's still more to be done, and if it doesn't get done, then this doctorate doesn't mean shit.

Some things fascinate me. Even tonight as I was in the shower, I thought all sorts of random stuff:

For one, I don't know if you have to marry the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. Granted, it makes sense to do so, but if you don't, does that make what two people have any less special? I used to read about people being life partners and scoffed at it. Now that I've gotten older, I totally get it.

For two, when I die, I don't want to be put in a casket. A simple cremation and ashes being in an urn is more than enough. I've been to enough funerals and looked at enough bodies in a casket to know I don't want that. Besides, why have people I love argue over how good I'd look in a certain color or type of casket? That's ridiculous.

For three, Imma do some moving around this year. Outside of going to watch the Cows in 2016, it's gonna be nice to go places, wander around, and not know a single soul.

1/1/16 @ 1:19 A.M.