Let Go

Did you ever think you met somebody that you could never see yourself not having in your life?

Well, that's definitely happened for me and, at the time, I sincerely believed it.

However, circumstances change...some people change...while some stay the same.

When it's all said and done, regardless of how long one, or both, of y'all held on...there are times when you just have to let go.

When that happens, and you're sincerely okay with it, you'll know.

Stay cool, nothing to see here is the mantra. In other words, the intangibles, the feelings that were present will become the past, and it can be looked at as just that...the past.

Look out for number one. Period. Let go.

12/13/11 @ 9:40 P.M.

Reflections...

Feelings that plenty of us have experienced...

Show and tell

A good book + some tunes = the remedy.

Tranquility

1. a disposition free from stress or emotion.

2. an untroubled state; free from disturbances.

Sometimes, all it takes is the right combination at the right place at the right time.

In the case of what’s in front of me, at this time, it brings a sense of peace, joy, tranquility…simple, relaxed…just perfect.

A moment captured in time…something to pack in my bag, put in my wallet, or hang on the speedometer of my car. Something that’s so strong, you’d swear it’s close, despite the fact that it truly isn’t and is very much afar.

It would go as the perfect compliment in a frame on the desk, or serve as the perfect pick-me-up and inspiration while taking on life’s daily tests.

For a picture to be worth a thousand words, it only takes a single word to sum this one up…

…beautiful.

11/15/11 @ 10:21 P.M.

Reading is FUN-damental

I'm back in my groove with books.

I just finished Sweetness and learned a lot about The Great Walter Payton that I didn't know. Jeff Pearlman did a damn good job of bringing Payton, and his various sides, to life. It's a good one and certainly worth checking out. Plus, it didn't hurt that the book was sent to me for free.

Next up is Pay it Down, by Jean Chatzky. I'm not the greatest at managing money, so I figured the best thing to do is to learn from someone who is an expert in the field. Besides, it's not necessarily long, page-wise, but I'm hoping there's plenty to gain from it, and that I'll be better for it than I am right now.

After that, there's Falling Man, by Don DeLillo. I'm really looking forward to reading this one. Hopefully, I'll start it sometime this week. We'll see how that goes.

And after THAT, I'll get to John Carlos' autobiography, with Dave Zirin. Carlos is one of my heroes, and he, along with Tommy Smith, inspired me to fly to California to pay my respects to the statue on San Jose State's campus. It was one of the greatest days of my life, and I can't wait to pick his book up and see the words come to life.

Reading is fundamental, indeed. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Another weekend in the country and other random thoughts

Today at 5:00 officially marked the start of another weekend in the country. Friday nights are pretty routine at this point: do my laundry, work out, go to the store, and watch movies until I pass out. Besides that, there will be plenty of reading, sleep, and may even mix some running in. Speaking of which, the Race for the Cure was last week and, thanks to the efforts of the homie D-Shep, I finished the 5K with the best time I've ever had. The goal next year is to post an even better time.

Oh, and no sodas in weeks. They kinda just went away as 5K training started several weeks back, and since then, I just haven't had a desire to have another one. It's strictly juice, milk, and water over here.

It feels good to be working again. When I was unemployed, I had all the time in the world to think about everything and, best believe, that's exactly what I did. People made me mad, and it festered in my mind, because I didn't have shit to do!

Don't get me wrong; I had peace of mind even during that time, but it's even more apparent now because, for nothing else, people don't bother me anymore, because I simply have other ways to occupy my mind. It's a great feeling.

I miss "Jenkins." I think she's gonna come back soon, though, and when she does, I'll take her to get some ice cream.

Oh, and the nephew and I had Man Time at MacDonald's last weekend. This lil' dude didn't touch his food; he just wanted to play in the playhouse the entire time, but let me take some food home, and he wants to eat off my plate. Typical toddler.

That's all for now.

10/21/11 @ 6:11 P.M.

P.S. "Sweetness," by Jeff Pearland is really, really good so far.

Nothing went according to plan

So the last time I posted, my plan was to live it up, right?

The plan was to go party with old-school players and old-school girls. The plan was to go tailgate all day Saturday at a football game. The plan was to get a haircut, take my clothes to the cleaners, buy some sneakers, milk, and get a refrigerator to put in my office. Oh, and the plan was to go to Buffalo Wild Wings to watch the Cowboys.

Well, I didn't do any of those things. Nope, not one.

What I did do was run. A lot. I slept, too. A lot (well, when I wasn't at work.) Maybe this weekend, the fortunes will change. All of the elements are in place for that to occur. If so, then perhaps my next entry will be a lil' more live.

Until then, it's back to watching beisbol, and starting a new book.

10/10/11 @ 7:37 P.M.