Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Love is a Four-Letter Word, But So Is Evil: Fuck It Part Three

The title of this is kinda misleading. The subject itself is not evil, by any means. She's actually a great woman; things just didn't work out. There's no love, but there's a really, really, REALLY strong like. I'm not quite to "charge it to the game" status yet, but I'm gettin' closer to being there everyday. Til then, words will be dug out from deep within, until there's nothing left to say...

Not too sure why the title is as such, other than the fact that it's definitely true. Never woulda thought a feeling would come over like this, due to actions between me and you. People say the best way to get over something, or someone, is to acknowledge its existence, and impact. Problem is, the good can be addressed all day, but it doesn't change the unmistakable fact...that things have changed.

Sure, maybe it can be patched up, but does it really even matter anymore? Maybe words and thoughts can be exchanged, yet things may never be like they were once before. In a sense, that's why something can be good, yet still be bad. Like realizing these words are therapeudic on one hand, but once they run out, the night will still end with me feelin' sad.

There's a part that wants to act like this shit doesn't even matter, like it aint no big deal, but if that part was to take over, there's no way that would be honest or keepin' it real. That's why times like this will continue to be bittersweet; realizing the irony of love and evil finding a way to co-exist, despite the fact this was never how they intended to meet...

6/3/09 @ 12:26 A.M.

Photo by Clifton Henri

3 comments:

Untouched Jewel said...

I'm so feeling this! Oh gosh, you just don't know how much you are reading my mind right now. I've been battling with this very same thing with my son's father, and he and I are just at bitter odds with each other (or at least I am with him). I wanted to blog something similar to this, but couldn't find the right words to say about it. You hit the nail on the head for me. Thank you.

Reginald said...

Evil and Love, to feel both for the same person. That is an intense emotion, enough to make someone crazy. I feel that.

manuel said...

TO BE EXACT IS TO BE TRUE WITH YOURSELF HOMIE AND THAT WAS 1000. WE ALL RELATE TO THAT. WITH THAT BEING SAID EMOTIONS COME AND GO. THEY NEVER LAST GOOD OR BAD ITS A HIGH. A ROLLER COASTER RIDE. AND WE ALL HAVE TO EXPERIENCE IT. WITHOUT DEATH TO EMOTIONS LOVE CAN'T TRUELY LIVE. KEEP LIVING BRO. MAN THE TITLE IS OFF THE CHAIN. YOU NEED TO MAKE THIS A PLAY. THINK ABOUT IT...........REAL TALK!